I know most people decided to do their 2019 reflective posts yesterday, but I decided to wait until today as the year wasn’t officially over – a lot can happen within the space of a few hours! So here are my reflections from 2019;
In the blink of an eye, another year is over
2019 has been an OK year for me; I spent much of this year in my comfort zone (a deliberate choice). After many years of feeling very overworked, over stressed and exhausted, I chose to spend this year coasting through. I read this post to Greg prior to publishing it; he felt my year had been far from coasting; he felt I worked tirelessly and pushed myself in many way. So I will clarify what I mean by coasting; much of this year I spent pushing myself in areas that I felt comfortable in. I knew the risks, they didn’t feel too scary; I knew more often than not, things should go as expected. I didn’t actively seek out challenges where I felt stress and pressure could be high; or the risk of failure could be crushing. I played it safe in a zone I knew and felt comfortable in.
Often we feel that we must be pushing and working towards something; if we aren’t, we are somehow not as good as others (this is not true). It is important to remember to rest and reflect too. This year I have spent a lot of time reflecting on my priorities, strengths and weaknesses; figuring out future plans of how and where I want to be. I don’t yet have all the answers, but that is what makes the journey exciting.
As another year closes, it is important to remember that if this year hasn’t gone as planned; this is not the end of your story. Some people have faced great triumphs and some great losses; some have had the time of their life, whilst others have hit rock bottom. The best stories always have unexpected twists and turns; and usually, after great struggles come great triumphs.
I’m not one for saying I am going to transform my life from January 1st onward, as I truly believe that a change can be made at any point in the year; it is never too soon or too late to make a change. That being said, I am excited to see what 2020 holds for me and my family.
Some of my highlights from 2019;
I’ve been incredibly fortunate to work with some incredible brands over the past year; they have inspired my writing, boosted my creativity, changed my thought patterns and opened my eyes. I’ve met many new and wonderful people through my blog and social media; it is always lovely to hear how my blog has helped others, or know that I have helped put others at ease when they felt alone. I’ve watched friends get married, had many baby cuddles, travelled and experienced new cultures. But for me, the biggest highlight has been enjoying another incredible year with my little family; they may all drive me somewhat bonkers, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
Some of the twists and turns from 2019;
Although my 2019 was fairly stable, there was naturally going to be a mixture of highs and lows. For a moment in 2019, I forgot who I was; I felt lost, I wasn’t sure who I was anymore. The reality of this, was that I no longer prioritized anything for myself. I began to feel like all I did was serve others; but if I’m honest, I didn’t feel like I was doing a great job of that either.
We all look down every so often in life, the important thing is to remember to pick our chin back up; dust ourselves off and remind ourselves that we have the power to steer and change our own life. I am still not the best at prioritizing my own interests, but I am very grateful for the slight blip in my 2019 journey; it has allowed me to refocus and re-evaluate for 2020.
The wonderful thing about life, is that it is your story to tell; you get to write each and every page of it. Sometimes people spill their ink on our pages; sometimes we have friends who help blot it off. Everyday and every page is a opportunity to try something new; say something that should have been said; pick up the phone; change the path we are on. You can completely reinvent yourself if you wish, or learn something new. Nothing is permanent, even you want it to be. Our past does not dictate our future; our mindset does.
So this is my mindset and current plans for 2020;
I will always leave people better than I found them.
I will hug those who are hurting physically, emotionally and mentally.
I will lend an ear and helping hand to those who are broken.
I will lift up and guide those who are lost.
I will love and give time to those who are lonely.
And I will be much, much kinder to myself.
I sincerely wish you a wonderful, prosperous 2020.
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Thank you to all of the brands who have worked with me in 2019